story about oranges

streetfly:

i went to the store to get oranges. i do nothing. i do nothing all day.

i’d written up a plan the previous night. to start at ten am. so many things to do.

i did one thing today. i went to the store to get oranges. left at seven pm.

came home, played zelda ii for two hours.

no, wait. thought about it for two hours.

i ate macaroni and cheese. felt like shit because i don’t like macaroni and cheese.

i think that maybe the kind of person who likes mac and cheese is the kind of person i love.

so i tried to eat macaroni and cheese to be like something i want someone to drag me out.

i feel very stuck at home. addicted. i think. addicted to this or that. but not addicted.

just depressed. the whole thing is nonsense.

go away, thing. i mean. stuff. i mean.

love,
f

from an old project.